I traveled a tiny bit growing up – Florida a lot to visit my mom’s side of the family, North Carolina once to visit family and we moved to California one year. So not a ton, and I’d never been out of the country until College, so of course it’s something that I’ve always wanted to do more of. That and I’m a Sagittarius – who apparently by nature, are prone to wonderlust. I actually don’t really follow horoscopes lol, I just think it’s fun to read them from time to time (like we did with friends back in middle school when we were reading Teen Vogue or whatever magazine they were in and would always giggle over the romantic aspects)… kind of too woo woo for me.
Anyway, thanks to Sam and thanks to you guys following along I’ve had more of an opportunity to travel the past year than I ever have. So thank you for following along 🙂 Getting to travel more often is something that excites me, pushes me and really inspires me all at the same time.
I get to see new places and broaden my horizons – which leaves me questioning my existence in one place my whole life. There are some amazing places out there!!!! Why is everyone in the world not living in The Bahamas!! I mean I get it – they couldn’t hold everyone, cost of living, jobs, hurricanes – my head isn’t completely in the clouds.
But then again, if I was ever forced to pick up and choose a new place to live it would be so hard because the few places I’ve been are all so unique and lovely and there’s still so much to see. Meh, maybe not, I really do love the Bahamas.
And I know that living somewhere is different from visiting. I currently live in a city where people are visiting every day (who probably think the same things about living in Austin?). So every time I travel I gain a new pair of eyes and a fresh perspective of my home and high hopes of thoroughly enjoying it more.
Still, I would still enjoy living somewhere new, even temporarily (one day?). I could see myself being happy in the mountains, REALLY happy somewhere near the ocean, and just smitten if we ever moved somewhere with enough land to get a horse. But I’m also happy where we are, I just take it for granted and I try to work on that.
I’m also traveling solo more often than not – which is a real thought provoking and stretching situation to be in because it forces me to revisit who I am as an individual and out in the world when I’m alone. It’s crazy how much you can lose certain characteristics when they go unpracticed for so long. Granted I’ve never been the most open person in the world but I have changed some since college, and since marriage.
Marriage in itself will stretch you, change you, test you and hopefully grow you in many ways, and mine has been typical in that way. Wonderful and hard. And sometimes really hard. And sometimes really wonderful. I wouldn’t take it back for a second….
But I know that I lean on Sam A LOT, letting his strengths take the place/ fill in the areas of my weaknesses.
Leaning on him to take over things I don’t understand or know how to do.
Letting him guide small talk with strangers
Or introduce us into a conversation at a gathering where we know no one.
Things like that – they came so much easier to me when I HAD to do them to survive or make friends or before I was dating Sam. Ya know?
And I feel that I have such a process of working to open up even more inside of such an intimate relationship that I sink into the comfort of being understood by Sam and not really looking to deeply connect elsewhere….I mean in a strictly non – romantic way elsewhere. The way you connect with your best friends and your favorite people or even just people you interact with on a day to day basis at the grocery store or at work.
Anyway, traveling solo makes me do that again. And it’s terrifying and it’s so good! And actually goes perfectly with my word for the year, OPENNESS.
One more thing I’ll say about traveling solo is that it inspires me to chase after my life and the things I want to accomplish. I love learning the history of a place and the people that made their mark on it. Or even just getting a glimpse into the lives of the people I meet in passing, especially in a Lyft or Uber where you meet drivers that are hustling and chasing their dreams. People are inspiring and resilient and unique and they more often than not motivate me to look up and appreciate life and the moments that make it up.
It’s an interesting thing to travel alone, and of course I’d prefer to have Sam or family or a friend with me to share in it all. But it’s kind of nice too. Not as lonely as you would think…