Hi, Happy Wednesday!?
Two more days until Sam comes home!!! I laugh at how much marriage has changed me. I mean…where that independent Amanda went, I have no clue. I just need that guy around, ya know? I’d say he’s my better half but I think we balance each other out in all the right ways. I can’t wait for him to be home!
In the spirit of being open today I’ve got some confessions to share with you on the blog today. All of them are light except for the last one.
Every. time. I go for a run or walk outside by myself – I run into stray / adventuring dogs. Rewind a little further – when I was younger I had a stray german shepherd bite me and then when I was older I had a stray dog chase me – no joke – four blocks down a street in Galveston. Literally, there I was SPRINTING faster than I’d ever run in my life, screaming “GO AWAY!! NOOOOO!” louder than I would scream at a concert because I thought I was about to get attacked. But then four blocks later it just let me go.
So don’t get me wrong, I love dogs, I just have this fear of random dogs without a person and I do really weird things when I see one. For instance the other day I was running around our neighborhood and this tiny chihuahua started barking at me and running after me (yes, i ran from it. I didn’t want to have to punt it like a football if it was going to try to bite me)…so I darted across the street and started running in circles when I finally noticed it’s owner was trying to wave me down to stop running so she could get her dog. EMBARRASSING.
And then on that same run, when I was finally turning the block to home, lo and behold, another dog – without an owner and much bigger – was walking toward me. It saw me and stopped in its tracks like it was about to dart at me at the same time a car was driving toward me. So I was thinking okay act like you didn’t mean to go this way so this car doesn’t assess the situation. But instead of acting calm I turned around and hauled ass an extra mile to get around the block and get home a different way. EMBARRASSING AGAIN.
Anyone else have this fear of stray dogs? I’m the biggest dog person ever, but not if they don’t have a person. If it was a puppy I would be okay, but not dogs. I’ll run an extra mile if I have to because I swear they can smell my fear from a mile away…which leads me to asking for your prayers while I’m in bear country 7 days from now.
I went to Target, Kirklands and Home Goods to try to find throw pillows for our living room couch. So I love pillows because they add character to a living space and really bring it all together but I’m just the worst at mix and matching them. I way over think it.
I went into Target and walked around for over an hour stuffing different pillows in my cart and then taking them out. And then putting new ones in and taking them out. And trying to mix and match them in my cart. And then I tried to match them on this gray futon that is the same color as our couch before people walked by and saw how horrible I was at matching pillows. Well, I finally left a cart full of six pillows in the pillow aisle because I was too frustrated to put them back so I just left. I usually love decorating but I just can’t with pillows. Is there some kind of throw pillow formula or rule that makes this easier?
I bought Gwenyth Paltrow’s third cook book “It’s All Easy.” I liked the recipes from her second one enough to buy her third one. Although, I think what prompted me to buy her first one was probably the picture perfect quality of it and the fact that Gwenyth is a skinny mom of two who claims to eat all of these things. Alright “It’s All Easy,” make me into a 5’9 skinny blonde woman. Please. But can I keep my tan skin, my freckles and actually I like being a brunette. Nevermind.
But I’ve got a line up of recipes I’m trying from it this week:
- Turkey meatloaf w/ sweet potatoes and green beans (which I don’t generally like meatloaf but I was intrigued)
- Chicken Pesto Zucchini Pasta
- Kimchi Cauliflower Fried Rice with Beef Stir-Fry
I’ll share with you whatever turns out well (I’m adding onto the recipes here and there. The dudes in the house will need more substance.).
This one is a longer and I don’t want to come off insensitive or offend anyone but… I felt annoyed every time I saw Jen Hatmaker’s most recent post on the shooting in Orlando. If you haven’t read it:
Jen Hatmaker’s Thoughts:
Can we have an important discussion together? And can we do it in love and respect?
I’ve been listening to my gay friends and leaders the last two days (Listening! It’s so 1991), and this is what I am hearing:
It is very difficult to accept the Christian lament for LGBT folks in their deaths when we’ve done such a brutal job of honoring them in their lives. It kind of feels like:
“We don’t like you, we don’t support you, we think you are a mess, we don’t agree with you, we don’t welcome you, we don’t approve of you, we don’t listen to you, we don’t affirm you. But please accept our comfort and kind words this week.”
Anti-LGBT sentiment has paved a long runway to hate crimes. When the gay community is denied civil liberties and respect and dignity, when we make gay jokes, when we say ‘that’s so gay’, when we turn our noses up or down, when we qualify every solitary statement of love with a caveat of disapproval, when we consistently disavow everything about the LGBT community, we create a culture ripe for hate. We are complicit.
We cannot with any integrity honor in death those we failed to honor in life.
Can you see why the Christian outpouring of compassion toward Orlando feels so disingenuous? It seems like the only harm toward the LGBT community that will overcome Christian disapproval is a mass murder. We grieve not publicly for your dehumanization, suicide rates (individual deaths have failed to move us), excommunications, denial of liberties, hate crimes against you, religious exclusion, constant shame beat down.
Christian love has yet to outpace Christian disdain.
I’ve seen Christians everywhere promising to pray for the victims and their families and their communities. I wonder what might happen if everyone actually does? What might God do if millions of Christians begin praying for comfort and love toward the LGBT community? Relational healing? Crazier things have happened.
Perhaps instead of saying “we’re sad” this week, we should begin with “we’re sorry.”
Not: We’re sorry but…
Not: We’re sorry if…
Not: We’re sorry as long as…
Just: We’re sorry. Full stop.
I believe glory would inhabit that sort of humility and repentance, like it always has. NOBODY should be able to out-love God’s people. We should be Grand Champion Lovers of People, and everyone, everyone, everyone, everyone, everyone should know it, see it, feel it, experience it, bask it in, and be drawn to it.
I think what happened in Orlando is horrible and evil and truly devastating. That any person would do this to any group of people is terrible. It’s evil.
I don’t understand the focus being shifted here, Jen. This doesn’t have to be a Christians vs. LGBT community thing, on either side. To me, this isn’t about that. Yes one group was a target of terrorism and it is awful. But his attack didn’t solely affect the LGBT community, it affected their loved ones and all of us as a nation. The fear and anger that terrorism causes doesn’t only affect one people group, it affects all of us. And I was honestly shocked and saddened when I heard the news.
We are all upset/enraged/sad that this happened, so lets come together as a country and let’s not allow controversy over lifestyle choices to shroud out the real issue of evil in this world. This isn’t a Christian history vs. LGBT issue and in my opinion that shouldn’t be the focus. This isn’t about controversy between the Christian & LGBT communities. This was an act of terrorism in our country and this is a fight against the evil in this world.
Someone said this in response to Jen’s post, “Here’s the deal…No one should be gunned down. This is about America. Period. Anything more is “agenda”. And that’s how I’ve kind of felt about her whole “just say sorry” to the LGBT community. Yes it’s terrible that this happened to them, but it’s terrible period.
Getting caught up in a dispute about differences in beliefs or wrongs will cause us to miss the opportunity to love where love is needed.
We don’t love because we want acceptance or approval from those with differing beliefs. We love because we were commanded to and maybe kind words and comfort aren’t wanted, but how can we love in a way that is needed? How does that look for you? Prayer, donating blood, etc. That we live in a world where anyone would do this to anyone is why the world needs us to put love into action.
Jen says that we cannot honor those who died with integrity, however, I don’t agree. We can honor those who died by going to battle against evil. We can honor those who died by doing good, by finding our way to love those affected by this terrorism and we can honor those who died with integrity because we know with our whole being that this was horrible on a basic human level. This was evil at work and we should be working together to fight that with truth and love. What seems counterproductive is to shift the focus anywhere else.
Just thinking out loud. What do you think?
Just a little Monday-Wednesday honesty.
Leave me a comment!